Still here

It's been a long time since I have posted. Of course a lot has happenned since then, but mostly I just wanted to shout out in the internet-o-sphere how much I still love my man. We have had fights, some worse than others. We have also had some really great times too. One thing is for sure, what doesn't make us kill each other does make us stronger.

I hope you know just how much I love you no matter what I say when I am angry at you. Lets keep trying to communicate better and grow together. Soon we start a new chapter. I can't wait!

I love you.

Creature Comforts

He's made the bedroom more comfortable for me by keeping the fan going in there on high. I have been having wicked night sweats and hot flashes for a few weeks now. When I am sick in the mornings he rubs my head while we are laying in bed. When I am down and out like I was this morning, he comes and checks on me often and gives me kisses which always make me feel a little better.

It's the little things like that make it all not quite as hellish as it could be. Thank you for making it easier to bear the pain and discomfort. I love you eternally.

Love Brighter Than The Stars

Last night we made love very gently for only the 2nd time in months. It was the most romantic bonding that I can recall between the two of us in a long time. The way he held me and touched me and looked in my eyes. It melted me the way that he kissed me and pulled me close to him. The way that he did all of these things so smoothly and so wholeheartedly. I fell even harder in love with him.

Cervical cancer doesn't exactly lead to an active sex life when you have a tumor the size of a baseball down there. So it's not like I don't want to but I can't because of pain, etc.

Last night was special because he was so gentle with me that there was no pain, only love. I love you even more than there could ever be room in the heavens of the multitudes of galaxies. There aren't enough stars to shine bright enough the magnitude of our supernova. I will love you forever.

Getting Some Head!

Last night after a long day of chemo topped with radiation, I laid down on Bret's lap and he rubbed my head for a good long time. During that time all I could think about was how good it felt. I forgot about everything for a little bit. And that was very nice. I love you for taking me away from it all of it in my head by rubbing my head. I love you for many more reasons than that, but that is just one of the small things that you do that make it so easy to love you.